Child Abuse or Abuse in General: Creates a tremendous amount of Anxiety later in life.
Anxiety is nothing more than a tremendous amount of wasted stored emotional energy. Its energy that can’t go anywhere so it clutters the mind and makes one think they are dying or having a heart attack or even have a nervous break down.
With Gods help I was very capable of learning how to channel this stored energy and unleash it with a fury and a passion to help others in my path whenever and wherever possible. The act of servant hood is a miraculous healer every time.
Child abuse creates an inferiority complex (lack of self-confidence and assuredness). It strips us of our ability to combat depression later in life unless we fight it.

Abuse causes inferiority: To be inferior means to be different and less than. But one day I learned that my inferiority was powerless against my uniqueness. When I listened to God and learned of my uniqueness I also learned what the true meaning of inferior really is. Inferiority happens when you step up to God rather than lean in. He taught me just how inferior I was without Him. He also taught me just how inferior I am when standing against Him. But when leaning into Him, I am a superior warrior and one who won’t ever be inferior again.

Abuse strips ones spirit.
In my book, I alluded to the fact that my spirit left me when I was humiliated in front of my friends. Many years later when I miraculously got it back on Easter Sunday the Year 2000. It was also my birthday and I was 33 turning 34, the same age as Jesus when he was resurrected, that was the day that my spirit was also resurrected. Our pain is never for naught. We must be patient when waiting for our spirit to return. Remember though It never truly leaves us, but it goes into hiding.

Sexual abuse Makes one feel awfully sick, nasty and dirty later in life.
I still have moments when I over-clean my body. Or when I allow me to feel nasty because of my past. Satan is relentless and attacks our weaknesses where as God strengthens our weaknesses. So I do 2 things, keep my eyes pointed on Jesus. 2. I attack the issue head on. In my book you will see that I went the extra mile to help the young boy who killed Damon. Damon was my attacker. I came to his rescue in an interview with the prosecutor. The boy was let free on probation after he turned 18. You will also notice in my book that I met a child molester and visited him in jail. I also supported him in court. Today he is one of my best friends and I have been mentoring him for more than 15 years. You can not run from your past and you must face the facts head on by going after the cure. You must get right!

Sexual abuse makes one role play the horrible events during intimacy with your husband or wife later in life.
Our love life has suffered dearly from time to time. I have good and bad streaks. Though I am sure it will always be affected because of this baggage, it will never ruin our marriage. Mainly 1. because God is at the center of our marriage. 2. Her and I communicate about it and talk about the complications and 3. I face it head on.

Sexual abuse causes a wall to go up around you. You trust no one later in life.
I often today find myself looking over my shoulder thinking Daemon is around the corner coming after me. I often have dreams that he is Satan and I must fight him. God reminds me that He is in front of me, not behind me. So 1. I keep focused on Him as I walk forward in life. 2. I only go backwards to heal and I only do it when Jesus is holding my spiritual hand. 3. I go the extra mile to love people and sacrifice myself for them. 4. I offer my story up for anyone who needs to know that they are not alone and that there is always hope. There is one true God who can take the worst possible trials and artistically and with precision sew up the worst wounds.

Loss: I had lost one loved one to death after another. I lost my son. I lost two wives. I lost my Mother for a period of time. I had no one to raise me. Being alone was one of the scariest but greatest strengthening moments of my life.
1. I had no choice but to allow God to raise me as His son. Oh and he did… ?
2. I learned how to be a warrior in all situations.
3. I learned how to fight solo physically, mentally, spiritually and psychologically
4. I appreciate people and their kindness to a most fulfilling extent.
5. I can live and be molded by Him to fight and survive any place, any time, with anybody and to any extent.

I am a warrior! You can be too. Allow yourself to die unto your weaknesses, give them to God and let Him transform you. You will be a superior, servant, warrior, protected, directed and loved by God.

I Love you!

Alter Pain